APPREHENSION

"He is not dead dad..." I wailed even though I new the reality.

It is a lot of pain when your most beloved pet dies. But it is truly unbearable if it dies in your lap, whirling in pain.. and equally unbearable if you have to bury it yourself... I never thought such a day would come for me...

When my most beloved pet, my best friend was unwell, I was confident that he would make it past its condition. When it couldn't, I denied that it was dead.. I wasn't a fool to feel that way for a pet. It was only a bird, but not "only a pet" for me and my family. I stayed up the whole night, sitting beside its cold, frozen body, shedding more tears than i had ever shed. As it dawned, i went with my dad to bury it in my own land... That was the worst experience I ever had... laying it in the pit we had dug... I wish this day never happened. 

 When this whole thing happened, I texted the ones whom i thought to be my friends. Most of them replied back. I didn't want an sympathy from them or anyone else. I just couldn't talk about it to my family, they were already taken aback by the happening and my broken behavior. I couldn't disturb them more. So I needed to talk to someone. And that's why I had wanted my friends with me. Many of them replied back. two of my best friends called me back to make sure I was fine. And two of them didn't contact me at all...

 That made me realize a few things... I had trusted the wrong people. My dad always tells me a line, "Things always happen for a reason." i understood he is correct. The ones who i thought would call me back didn't and the ones who i thought would take it light tried to make sure i was fine. At last I realized who my true friends are...

 As i thought I was alone, I felt a warm hand on my shoulder from behind. I was near my pet's body, covering it up in my old towel, crying, when my dad came up to me and sat beside me. I realized I wasn't alone. That was the first time I held on to my dad and cried for a long time... may my poor friend rest in peace.... the one who even after death did the good part for its master... making me realize what is what...